Sad.

So the baby news was great for a little while...now it is up in the air.  I have been to 2 ultrasounds and they cannot verify whether I am actually passing the baby or whether it may still be alive inside.  I had many different emotions going through this.  I was only with my fiance where we were living while working so talking to females about this issue was a bit hard.  I have had many tears shed, and many up and down days since that day where the doctor looked worried about the bleeding that I had started that fateful Saturday about 3 weeks ago.  They told me I was 6 weeks and no heartbeat could be detected, yet the placenta and "yolk" as the doctor referred to it were there but there was no embryo or "baby" that they could detect.  My aunt had had 2-3 miscarriages and god bless her was on the phone with me every night discussing the heartbreak and the fact that no one really knows, the baby could still be there and everything could potentially be alright.  As of right now I really still do not know the fate of the being inside of me, but I have not had a major sign from my body that it has passed on from this plane of being. All I can do is wait and pray for now....